My heart in the bottle..

I kept in on the bottle,
hope the letter is not gone.

I kept in the bottle,
hope my life is always on..

I kept it on the bottle,
hope this letter will save me from harm.

I kept it in the bottle,
I see my life is not there anymore.

I kept in outside the bottle,
I watch my self running and playing games.

Maybe im not good enough to kept my life secret anymore.

friends.. im have tell u the truth.. and still hoping that u can accept me..

- Noreilya Ain Syafikah Binti Syed Muadzamshah Syierkeed -

I miss her

I miss Her..

its word from her..



" dot..dot..dot.." Dia akan sebut menda nie bila dia rsa happy sambil bow tahap cipan.

Bila dia bengang.. ini la yg dia sebut.. "what evah!"

Bila musuh kitaorang datang.. dengan penuh rasa menyampah dia akan kata.. " lilly come again.!"

Bila dia terperangkap.. dia akan sebut " baby on the board"

" crazy is happy " Bila dia tension.. dia akan pura2 gila + ngader2 .

" Friends is cruel but mighty to make me feel dizzy " Nie la perkataan paling femes apabila ada orang crita masalah kat dia.. especially aku!


kadang2, aku x faham apa yang dia cakap. Seperti biasa, aku akan pura2 faham.. ( 0 - o )

Ayah...

Sebenarnya..

Ayah… kebelakangan ini Eilya teramat rindukan ayah..

Sudah lama ayah tak pulang.

Ibu pula, sudah lama tak datang jenguk Eilya..

Kat sini boring la yah.. Eilya bosan !

Kat sini tiada kawan..

Sehari-harian Eilya jadi orang gaji ..

Ayah..

Datang la jenguk Eilya..

Eilya sayang ayah..

Ayah..

Eilya janji tak kan buat hal lagi..

Eilya akan ikut ayah pergi France kalau itu yang ayah mahu..

Eilya janji yah..

Ibu dah kahwin dengan dengan Uncle R,

Uncle R baik.. dia tak pernah sakitkan hati ibu.. tak pernah sakitkan hati Eilya,

Bila Eilya sakit, Uncle R akan bawa Eilya ke Klinik,

Uncle R belikan Eilya apa sahaja menurut keinginan Eilya,

Uncle R hantar Eilya ke kelas mengaji Al-Quran,

Belikan pakaian yang sopan2 kepada Eilya..

Tapi, Uncle R dah tiada..

Uncle R kemalangan..

Ibu pun sama..

Eilya sedih yah…

Sedih ….

Ayah..

Balik la…

Eilya rindu ayah..

Eilya sayang ayah..

[ Pembaca sekalian.. doakan Ayah Eilya pulang yer.. Eilya dah tiada sesiapa di dunia nie.. Eilya teringin di sayangi.. Eilya nak keluarga.. Eilya nak bahagia.. Eilya nak kasih sayang.. ]

Ayah..

Entri ni khas bwat Ayah,


Ayah..

Ayah kata ayah sayang ibu..

Tapi, kenapa ayah seksa ibu?

Ayah..

Ayah kata ayah sayang anak-anak ayah..

Tapi, kenapa ayah hantar orang untuk bunuh adik-adik Eilya?

Ayah..

Mungkin suatu hari nanti..

Ayah akan hantar orang untuk bunuh Eilya pula.

Tidak mengapa la yah.. Eilya tahu..

Ayah terlalu sayangkan Eilya sehingga ayah tidak tahu apa nak buat kan?

Mungkin inilah caranya ayah menyalurkan kasih sayang kepada anak-anak ayah.

Terima Kasih Ayah.

Terima Kasih kerana sudi menjadi suami serta ayah yang kejam kepada kami.

Sayang ayah selamanya..

- Irish Ilyana Soul -

Am I Muslim ?

I bear witness in my heart,
that there is no Lord but Allah ,

and I bear witness in my heart,
that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah.

***

Friends..

I feel something weird today. I feel that Allah give me guidance. He show me the real life. He gave me person that can help me. But, I refuse..

Im asking my self..

Why ?

Why.. I refuse to see them?

While I know that they are will help me to know better about islam. Im searching of it. But, I refuse to know it better.

I think that im not good enough to be muslim.

To be a real muslim. Not only named at IC.

God ! Help me…

Please…

Help me..

Please..

Show me the truth!!!



And say: " Truth has (now) arrived, and Falsehood perished: for Falsehood is (by its nature) bound to perish." [ Al-isra’ : 81 ]

***

I believe that I have found the truth. Islam is the true religion and way of life.

Which is GOD ?

Today, im waiting of Him.. Lord of the Lord. But, there is nothing.. He just give me a feel of the feel. Hard to said what type of feeling.

Most of my friends said.. " why u are so..so...and so..interesting wif islam.. as what u know that there is no different between this and that (christian and islam) its religion. God is God.. The Almighty one?"

Excuse me friends.. majority of u said like that. but...

" U said God is God.. The Almighty One. "

it means God is One is it? not 3nity..

Who am I ?

Why god create me?

Who's the real God?

Can we see Him?

Can we talk to Him ?

or maybe God is like human? can talk a lot.. play and making joke?


Im not sure if im the true believer or not. Im confuse wif what im feelin of. How can sambal terung gang believe of Allah? they think that Allah guide they are..

Everything they do is just coz of Allah.
They put their trust to Allah totally..